Run-away children

When I woke up that morning, I couldn’t breathe. Something seemed to be stuck in my throat; something that seemed to throttle my heart and weight it down that everything inside was crushed. Crushed, so that it may not be revived again.

Yesterday, there had been mayhem. My safe haven ceased to become safe, it stopped becoming my heaven, my pride. As my two angels fought, sending forth fire and ice, ice and fire. From all that ice between them, I was caught in the cold. Between those fires, between those extremities, I burnt. And nobody listens.

 As I glide with swollen eyes from my bedroom to the kitchen, I do not hear a pleasant Good Morning. Instead, I find gloom, and a faint smell of impending doom. I find my angel in the kitchen, scrubbing a pan, her magic lost, her face a mask of sadness. If I touch her, she bites. If I whimper and cry, she slashes me with her tongue.

I am tired of this. I do not want to be part of this. I want to go. I want to escape. When they take their fights outside, to where the blind woman sits, balancing two acts, I write my message. I pack my bag.

And when the clock strikes nine, I leave. I leave so I might never come back again. I don’t want to. When what used to give you joy gives you pain, you leave it be. When you can’t mend it, you bury it. I decided to run away from it.

Running away seems to be the ultimate escape for teenagers these days. Although we often take it lightly when youngsters say they feel like ‘running away from home’. I remember someone telling me when a 4 year old started walking away and sating “I’m going to go away” because she got scolded. The 4 year old was me.

Now that I can think in a much more sensible way than then, I wonder whether the ‘running away’  concept was so prominent even then, that a 4 year old would show a stuck up face, hilarious as it is?

During my research on this topic, I even stumbled upon a site which gave extensive information on “How to Run Away”. Alarmed as I was, I calmed down afterwards when they said Don’t at the end, followed by more information. Kids get so many run-away success stories and How to- information from the Internet that, they do not feel that it is such a big thing.

“What’s wrong with running away?” asks a 15 year old. “You escape from things, when they’re better you find your way back. It’s that simple.”

It is estimated that more than 100,000 kids run away from home each year. Most of them run away because of abuse, peer pressure or due to domestic problems. There are even a remarkable percentage of kids who run away to due to loneliness.

Run-away children are the results of unfortunate circumstances. They’re weak, they’re helpless. And most often, they do not know the right thing to do.

The world is an abyss. It spins around, and with it in spins me. When it stops, I do too. When things change, I have to. And when I change, I change alone. When I fall, I fall alone. Alone. Alone. 

7 Responses to Run-away children

  1. rajeshraj says:

    best wishes aiswarya, for your all future creations…

  2. av santhosh kumar says:

    its really tuching, the first part , the narration..best of luck Ash..

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  4. Padmanabhan Thikkodi says:

    Enjoyed reading…. beautifully presented…..

  5. unni says:

    congrads…………continue…………

  6. saseendran chittur says:

    hello my dear…………

    it was touching like anything unusally. ……………

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    congats and wish you all the best to the days to come,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

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  7. pramod parameshwar says:

    its a nice document…

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